My Testimony: Saved Out Of New Age Deception
Searching For Truth
At a young age, God placed inside of me a strong drive to find "the truth" which drove me to question everything. I was raised in a strict Roman Catholic family and went to a Catholic high school but never became a practicing Catholic. As a young adult, my ongoing quest for truth led me to try and study everything I considered to be spiritual. As I searched to know God more, I became "less religious" and "more spiritual" (or so I thought). I studied and practiced meditation, Buddhism, New Age philosophies, yoga, A Course in Miracles, different forms of energy healing and sound healing, parapsychology, ufology, The Urantia Book, Merkabah mechanics, worked with a Shaman, and so on. During this time, I also receive my certification in PSYCH-K®, Bars Access Consciousness, and Reiki. I then spent many years as a Health Counselor and Dharma Coach.
The deeper I got into these philosophies and practices the more powerful I became in my "spiritual gifts" (what the Bible points out are false gifts orchestrated by demonic powers), and the more I grew towards becoming "my own god" (i.e., creating my own reality, manifestations happening with extreme synchronicities, etc.). As a New Age follower, I thought the idea of Jesus, the Bible, and Christianity were all forms of manipulation, mind-control, and just fodder for the masses. For this reason, what was soon to happen to me can be nothing short of a miracle allowed by the grace of the Most High God. Thinking back, I see how I came under demonic attack many times throughout my life in many different forms (i.e., sleep paralysis, extreme panic attacks and blackouts, supernatural occurrences, etc.), but due to my ignorance and fear, I had no idea what was really happening to me at that time.
Using a Ouija Board
Also interesting to note (prior to my becoming a believer) is a supernatural experience I had in my mid-twenties. During this period of my life, I had spent time as a recreational paranormal investigator and participated in an official paranormal investigation of a haunted Inn in Connecticut, conducted by famous paranormal investigators Ed and Lorraine Warren. At one point during the investigation they asked me to participate in contacting the "spirits" in the Inn using a Ouija board. Hesitantly, I agreed. As we began using the board, we made contact with these spirits (demons) and a cold spot (portal) formed above the board and a spirit came through. It spiraled all around me and was ice cold as it grazed across my skin with a swift icy breeze. Eventually, the cold spot dispersed, the spirit went away, and I was left terrified. That night I learned just how dangerous using a Ouija board is.
Accepting Jesus Christ
Then, at the age of 41, I had an experience that lead me to Jesus Christ. It's important I emphasize that I was not looking for Jesus or anything to do with Christianity. If anything, I was very much against it. And, this experience happened at a time in my life when things were going really well for me, and although I was spiritually "lost", I definitely didn't think or feel I was. This experience occurred one day completely out of the blue while I was reading a book entitled, "He Came To Set The Captives Free", by Rebecca Brown. As I was reading the book, all of a sudden it felt like my awareness was opened, like puzzle pieces clicking together, and I understood in that moment who Jesus was and who I really was in relation to God.
Instantly, I understood who Jesus is, what he did, how I was a sinner who needed to be forgiven, and how without Jesus my soul would be damned to hell for eternity (even though as a New Ager I didn't believe in the concept of sin or hell!). I knew without a doubt that Jesus Christ is exactly who he claimed to be and I believed! I understood that I was a sinner and that Jesus Christ had died and rose again for my justification. I became aware of the reality of hell, demonic spirits, and Lucifer (all of which I had never believed in). It felt like I was waking up from a trance; like a spiritual veil was lifted off of my mind.
This spiritual revelation came as a complete shock to me, and it completely dismantled all of my formerly held beliefs about God and life. It completely humbled me to my core. My existing paradigm was completely shattered. As this understanding filled me, it became undeniably clear that I had been deceived for years and misled by New Age teachings and doctrine (I later learned that New Age teachings represent the "false light" and has it's roots in Luciferian doctrine). I was deceived into thinking that Jesus was an advanced spiritual master (or avatar) and just a prophet, and that accepting Christ really meant achieving a "Christ-like consciousness". I was also deceived into believing that Christianity was only "one of many paths to truth" and that it really didn't matter what a person chooses to believe in.
Then, a strong conviction and reverent fear of God fell upon me. I dropped to my knees literally trembling under conviction (Isaiah 11:2). My heart was deeply pierced as I became aware of all the sin, hurt, and suffering I had caused myself and others, bringing me to tears. Prior to this experience, I never believed in the concept of sin. Realizing I was a sinner and how my sins damaged my life and others was a huge paradigm shift for me. I also became convicted to remove unholy and occult objects and books from my house. And, I felt a strong urge to surrender over my will in favor of God's will (John 16:13). From that moment on, it became more important for me to please God rather than to please myself or others.
I also understood that I needed to start reading the Bible and that it is God's inspired written Word. Problem was, I didn't own a Bible! So I went out and bought a KJV Bible that week and started reading it like never before. For the first time I was able to understand the Bible - it came alive! The other shift I noticed was that my taste in music changed. I lost interest in secular music and found myself listening to praise music. The interesting thing about this was that I had never been able to listen to Christian music before without it irritating me, but now I love it.
Called To Give Wise Counsel
In 1 Corinthians 12:1-11, Paul explains that different spiritual gifts are given to the Body of Christ by the Holy Spirit. In verses 7- 8 he says, "A spiritual gift is given to each of us so we can help each other. To one person the Spirit gives the ability to give wise advice...", and it is this gift, the ability to give wise advise, that I believe I have been given. For this reason, I have established this ministry to provide wise counsel and words of encouragement to those in need of godly counsel. I believe my purpose in the Body of Christ is to minister the gospel of grace to others and to edify fellow believers in the Lord. All glory and honor be to the Lord! I no longer practice, use, or follow any New Age doctrines or disciplines, any Eastern philosophies, or anything that is not in alignment with the true teachings of Jesus Christ and the Word of God. If you need help, support, or prayer for what you are struggling with please don't hesitate to reach out.