Saved Out Of New Age Deception
Searching For Truth
At a young age, God placed inside of me a strong drive to find "the truth" which drove me to question everything. I was raised in a strict Roman Catholic family and went to a Catholic high school but never became a practicing Catholic. As a young adult, my ongoing quest for truth lead me to try and study everything I considered to be spiritual. As I searched to know God more, I became "less religious" and "more spiritual" (or so I thought). I studied and practiced meditation, Buddhism, New Age philosophies, yoga, A Course in Miracles, different forms of energy healing and sound healing, parapsychology, ufology, The Urantia Book, Merkabah mechanics, I worked with a Shaman at one point, and so on. During this time, I also receive my certification in PSYCH-K®, Bars Access Consciousness, and Reiki. I then spent many years as a Health Counselor and Dharma Coach.
The deeper I got into these philosophies and practices the more powerful I became in my "spiritual gifts" (what the Bible points out are false gifts orchestrated by demonic powers), and the closer I grew towards becoming "my own god" (i.e., creating my own reality, manifestation happening with extreme synchronicities, etc.). As a New Age follower, I thought the idea of Jesus, the Bible, and Christianity were all forms of manipulation, mind-control, and just fodder for the masses. For this reason, what was soon to happen to me can be nothing short of a miracle allowed by the grace of the Most High God. Thinking back, I see how I came under demonic attack many times throughout my life in many different forms (i.e., sleep paralysis, extreme panic attacks and blackouts, supernatural occurrences, etc.), but due to my ignorance and fear, I had no idea what was really happening to me at that time.
Using a Ouija Board
Also interesting to note (prior to my becoming a follower of Jesus Christ) is a supernatural experience I had in my mid-twenties. During this period of my life, I had spent time as a recreational paranormal researcher and investigator and participated in an official paranormal investigation of a haunted Inn in Connecticut. This investigation was conducted by the famous paranormal investigators Ed and Lorraine Warren. At one point during the investigation they asked me to participate in contacting the "ghosts" or "spirits" in the Inn using a Ouija board. Hesitantly, I agreed. As we began using the board, we made contact with these spirits (demons) and a cold spot formed (portal) above the board and a demon came through. It spiraled all around me and was ice cold as it grazed across my skin with a swift icy breeze. Eventually, the cold spot dispersed, the spirit went away, and I was left terrified. That night I learned just how dangerous using a Ouija board is. In retrospect, I thank the Holy Spirit for protecting me during that experience.
Accepting Jesus Christ
Then, at the age of 41, I experienced a spiritual revelation from Jesus Christ. It's important that I emphasize I was not looking for Jesus or anything to do with Christianity. If anything I was very much against it. And, this experience happened at a time in my life when things were going really well for me, and although I was "lost", I definitely didn't think or feel that I was. This revelation occurred one day completely out of the blue while I was reading a book entitled, He Came To Set The Captives Free by Rebecca Brown.
In her book, Brown mentions Jesus, and as I read over his name, all of a sudden, in what felt like some sort of "download", my "eyes" were opened. In that moment, I was downloaded an understanding of who Jesus is, what he did (died for me and shed his blood to make atonement for my sins), how I was a sinner who needed to be forgiven, and how without Jesus my soul was damned to hell for eternity. In an instant, I knew without a doubt that Jesus Christ is really who he said he is! I knew beyond a doubt that he died and shed his blood so that my sins could be forgiven and that he rose from the dead. Even though I had heard about Jesus in my past I never "got it". This "revelation" also contained an understanding on the reality of hell, demons, and satan - all of which I had never believed in before and had a lot of fear about. It felt like the blinders were supernaturally removed from my eyes and as if a strong delusion was lifted. The puzzle pieces began to fit together. It felt as if my mind was being unlocked, like I was waking up from a trance. I was able to see and understand the truth about Jesus Christ and see through the deception that is all around us in a way I had not been able to fully understand or see before. By the grace of God, the Lord had opened my eyes.
This revelation came as a complete shock to me. I had no idea why this was happening and it completely broke down and destroyed all of my formerly held beliefs and understandings. It completely humbled me to my core. As this understanding filled me, it became undeniably clear that I had been deceived for years and misled by the New Age movement (I later learned that New Age doctrine represents the "false light" and has it's roots in Luciferian doctrine). It became clear to me just how deceived I had been for years. Deceived into thinking that Jesus was an advanced spiritual master or just a prophet and that accepting Christ really just meant achieving a "Christ-like consciousness". Deceived to believe that Christianity was only "one of many paths to truth". Then, a strong fear of God fell upon me. I dropped to my knees literally trembling in reverent fear of God (Isaiah 11:2). I think what happened was the Holy Spirit fell upon me at the moment when I believed on Jesus Christ (the gospel) and accepted what the Bible calls the "gift" of salvation. Gratitude filled me, and still does to this day.
In the days that followed, the Holy Spirit began revealing to me my sins. I had previously never believed in the concept of sin so this was a huge shift for me. This experience deeply pierced my heart as I became aware of all the hurt and suffering I had caused myself and others, bringing me to tears. The Spirit eventually led me to the knowledge of unholy things in my house that needed to go. I also felt a strong urge to surrender over my will in favor of God's will (John 16:13). From that moment on, it became more important to me to please God rather than to please myself or others. I started drinking in the Bible like never before (when this happened I didn't even own a Bible and had to go buy one)! For the first time I was able to understand the Bible - it came alive! The other shift I noticed was that my taste in music changed. I lost interest in secular music and found myself listening to praise music. The interesting thing about this was that I had never been able to listen to Christian music before without it irritating me, but now I can't get enough of it!
Called To Give Wise Counsel
In 1 Corinthians 12:1-11, Paul explains the different spiritual gifts given by the Holy Spirit. In verses 7- 8 he says, "A spiritual gift is given to each of us so we can help each other. To one person the Spirit gives the ability to give wise advice...", and it is this spiritual gift, the ability to give wise advise, that the Holy Spirit has given me. For this reason, I have been called to this ministry, to provide wise counsel and words of encouragement to others in the name of Jesus Christ. God called me out of the New Age movement and is using my gifts, education, and experiences for His purposes now. I believe the Lord has called me to help set others free so they can experience the love and grace of God more fully in their lives. All glory and honor be to the Lord! I no longer practice, use, or follow any New Age doctrines or disciplines, any Eastern philosophies, or anything that is not in alignment with the true teachings of Jesus Christ and the Word of God. If you need help, support, or prayer for what you are struggling with please don't hesitate to reach out.